The Fifty Minute Hour

Thoughts on therapy and life

Mindfulness and Me *

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My very first car was a Fiat Panda; I loved it but it was a terrible car, the sort that I could (and sometimes did) leave in a multi storey car park with the keys hanging out the door, and it would still be there when I got back. One of the things I remember about this car was that it would keep revving, even when in neutral. I coined the phrase “running on” to describe this – the sense that even at rest the engine couldn’t stop.

Now, when I had that Panda, and for years afterwards, I too was in a state of “running on”, never still, mind always racing ahead to the next thing.. “Relax!” has been a refrain ringing in my ears from an early age and about 18 months ago I started trying to get a handle on how I might do this.  I started with yoga, which I instantly loved for the way it made my body feel, and the message of non-judgemental practice. Compassion for self is something I am good at saying to others, but yoga gave me a physical reminder of how to do this for myself

Then came the mindfulness, slowly at first as I tried to pursue courses and schedules, before inevitably failing to keep up with the targets I had set myself. Now I do a little better, by trying to build it into my daily life. And all this really means for me is remember to take time to breathe, and an (almost) daily meditation practice.

Sometimes I don’t do very well, and have to remind myself to come back to a place of stillness. And don’t let that meditation practice fool you, I’m talking minutes per day, not hours of sitting in serenity. But just at the moment this seems enough to keep me grounded in a world where time seems to go so fast I can’t always keep up with it.

I value the stillness, and yes the serenity that I can sometimes find in sitting and breathing. I feel anchored in my body, and calm. I like calmness, it’s like a duvet wrapped around me, which feels comforting but also protective.

Part of meditation for me is the idea that as I try to cultivate compassion and altruistic love, that this links me to others doing the same, that people are intrinsically good. It makes the world a more positive and friendly place, and a nicer place to be.

When I slow down, I notice the world differently, it’s a bit like when you go out with a camera, suddenly you are looking for what you can see, rather than letting it wash over you as background. This is great, I notice the lovely things, the dog I pass on my way to work with the curly tail, the birds in the fields as I queue on the slip road, just stuff it’s easy to pass by without noticing.

Traffic jams become a welcome opportunity for breathing and being – OK I’m still working on that one, but you get the picture.

Mindfulness and me –  a work in progress, but I’m enjoying the journey.

Mindfulness, a practical guide to finding peace in a frantic world.

I am here now: The Mindfulness Project.

*I am not an expert, I’m not a teacher, these are just my thoughts on mindfulness and what it means to me.


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It may, or may not, be Body Dysmorpha Awareness Day……

ImageI have in my diary that May 17th is  Body Dysmorphia Awareness day, and I occasionally catch sight of a tweet to that effect, but my Google searches have not come up with anything that allows me to corroborate this for definite. So, whilst I don’t want to allude to anything that might not actually be happening, I thought it might still be worthwhile exploring Body Dysmophic Disorder (BDD), as it is often misunderstood.

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Botox as a cure for depression?


Woman getting botox

Woman getting botox

Let’s face it, Botox won’t make us happier by Psychologist Jay Watts in the Guardian (11/3/13) was an excellent response to a recent and disturbing trend in academic thinking, namely that if you can’t show it, you don’t feel it. View the pictures →

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